Foreigners VS Locals

As news have revealed, the current Singapore population...consists of 1 million FOREIGNERS!!

Not just 1,000..100,000..

1,000,000!!!

Seriously, Singaporeans...start reproducing.

I don't think that amount is going to just stop there at the 6th zero y'know. Before we know it, Singapore is going to be like what is was when Raffles first landed. An island where many from many lands come.

On my part, I seriously have no objections to this. They do not exactly cramp my way of life, in fact I think they bring about even more cultural and global understanding. Then again, I'm a bias creature who is currently in love with a China national.

Don't listen to me, if you don't wish to. I'm just saying my piece.

I totally agree with what MM Lee has to say: We need foreigners.

Why? Imagine without them, how many of you cocky-Singaporeans are going to be slogging at the construction sites with yellow plastic hats and PCK boots? How many Singaporeans are willing to work and earn an income lower than $1K a month?

Zilch! If any, very minimal.

Singapore is a land whereby education has become practically our way of life. Without education, you are basically not a real Singaporean. As I heard from many people.

This ultimate consequence is probably a ripple effect from when education has become so important to Singaporeans that...just because we hold a nice degree, slip on a fancy office attire, are bilingual...we strut ourselves around and expect to start from anywhere but the bottom.

Anyways, before we side-track too far..Back to the population issue.

The Singapore government has put in countless attempts to encourage our people to reproduce. Alas, no avail.

Whats wrong, people? I'm not married, so thus I can't really help much.

The thing is, it is not the men who don't want children...It is the women!
The very bearer of the children, does not wish to bear the children!
Bah!

Speaking from a female's point-of-view....Here are the few things that I think are reasons so to why women are unwilling to bear children.

1. Fats??
Okay, the ultimate enemy of most females. Your closest friend & your worst enemy! Most women, after child-birth, blow up like a hot air balloon and could say goodbye forever to wearing those sexy outfits. Real bummer.

2. Money.
Hmm, of course. Y'know, an elder told me before, “在新加坡来赚钱，行！但是不要在新加坡结婚，生孩子或死掉！” Translation: You can come and earn money in Singapore, but don't get married, give birth or die here. Main reason? It is the ultimate kerosene and flame on your wallet and bank account.

Rearing children in Singapore is definitely no easy task. Unlike farms in some rural part of developing countries, your basic concern would be to feed your children..not to feed them to some predator. In Singapore, getting pregnant is expensive. Doctor's check-up fees, hospital fees, tonics...Then when that little thing is out? Just the education fees alone could kill. Everything demands for money nowadays. As the saying goes: 如果你没钱，就闭嘴！ If you don't have the money, shut up! Sounds quite vulgar and crude, but that's the way the world moves.

3. Responsibilty....
Ah yes. Once you have children, it is a life-time responsiblity. My grandma told me, 当你成为母亲，你会担心到你死为此！When you become a mother, you will worry till the day you die. Ouch! Who in the world would want to give birth to a bundle of worry-causing flesh & bones?? It is not so bad if you have an utterly adorable bundle of joy and very obedient! Getting good grades in school, mixing with decent friends. Getting a good paying job and marrying a good person. It is easy to hope for something like that. However, how many of us would surely get such good children?? Sad to say, reality is nowhere near a fairy tale.

4. Career!
So many women nowadays are holding high ranking positions, earning fatter pay cheques than most men. In fact, in a recent survey, Singapore has more female bosses in comparison to male bosses. *glows with pride!* Haha! The downside to this is....Women naturally have lesser time for their household. I bet that, in today's world...Most maids know the children more than their own mothers. Sad fact, huh? I, for one, would abhor to know if my children were closer to my maid than me!! Then again, I'm of possessive nature.

5. Absolutely no desire of having children?
As most Chinese like to say, 两人世界。Bah. What more can I say about this? Go for some brainwashing??

Bah! 不想继续了！妈咪真是令人讨厌！

Tsk. *grumble*

Something to cheer me up.



Haha! Pure comedy.

Humph. Why do I have to be part of her 'charity' doings?? I'm sorry, but it's not in my nature to be nice to some people! 对，我冷淡。Take it or leave it. 不然，我就会对他不客气。So I think you would rather I be 冷淡 than be nasty and rude, right?

All those pathetic & feeble attempts to try to get close to me? 不好意思，你对我一点也不重要。在我脑海你，根本没有你的影响。哦，有啊！当我看到疯子，我会以为是你。这样就想到你啦！别做那种无聊的东西，以为我最后会喜欢你。拜托，已经几年了？你等不累，本小姐也感到烦啊！逼你自己做我喜欢男生做的东西…Sorry, I don't feel touched. In fact, I feel downright disgusted! Where are your balls at? Okay, 比如说如果你变成我喜欢的类型，，而如果我接受你（Heaven forbid!) 就是说我喜欢的不是真正的你。你说值得吗？Wait, I already asked you this question before. And you said YES!! My gosh. 没用的男人，就是没用的男人！我知道你对我好，一直想表达你对我的关心，等等。Truthfully speaking, I think I can take care of myself better than you can.

哎呀，现在心情好多了！Nien Ting came over!! 陪我聊天！她现在在我旁边读书……还有说很多无聊的话。“小心哦，嫁给中国人很辛苦的！” So everyone tells me. Then again, 嫁给谁都会有辛苦的。So, not much difference is there?

Bah. Okays. Love love.

童话

This is my first keyboard recording!! YAY!! *sniff!!* Oh, this is such a sentimental moment.

Anyways, I know there are a few blunders here & there...I'm only human! Then again, I'm not finding excuses for my mistakes. Promise I would work harder on this thingy! As much as possible, do try to ENJOY!!!

Love Love.

Practical Joke

You're nothing but a Ha Ha He He Ha Ha Ha.

Got me bursting in a mixture of emotions. The feeling is disgusting.

Love you, hate you.
Want you, discard you.
Hold you, leave you.

Whatever I want, is not whatever I want.

Go on deluding yourself that I may want you; because I might actually still do.

I'm drowned in temporary distractions and scintillating illusions.
I'm surrounded by realistically fake acumen on what I should want.
I've fallen in the abyss of the most diabolical understanding of what you might want.
I've adjusted countless tweaks in feeble attempt of your consent.

You put me through this; I've been through it before.

One day I'll awake and forget all.
Only inklings would occasionally visit my sea of thoughts.

You shoved me into this; I've survived this before.

One night I'll fall asleep and dream a fantasy.
A world whereby there are people I could trust & not fret about miscommunications and deceptions.

It's an ugly world, yet it has given me unlimited beautiful things.
It's a dirty world, yet it inspires me to clean up.

You are just you.
So I decided that, you are dropped.

Just as I mentioned, you are nothing by a practical joke of my past.

One day I'll remember & go Ha Ha He He Ha Ha Ha.

无形眷恋

不需要你，不想要你了。
请你别紧握无聊的回忆。
我想起我们的以前，就感到快乐。
我记得我们的现在，就感到眷恋。
我想同我自己的现在，就感到安慰。
我计划我自己的未来，就感到幸福。

但为什么我还是会受到伤害？你想做什么，应该是你自己的事了。但我怎么还会感到心疼？

我真的没办法。不知道该怎么样。
在这种时候，我突然会再记得……我是孤单的。
我会突然知道，我没有一个我能信任的人。
我不能得到任何人的安慰。
但话说回来，我也不想得到。因为我不想依靠任何人。
但……一个人，总是得依靠别人的吧？世界就是这样子转的啊，互相依靠。

爸爸。爸爸。
牵我的手，带我走好吗？
我世界亮的很。我心里暗的很。
爸爸，如果你在，我根本不会爱上他。我根本不会认识他。
爸爸，如果能逃避我现在感到的郁闷，悲伤，孤单…我愿意把时间转回，让我不认识他。可以吗？求求你，现在真的好痛。
这种痛，不管吃了多少药…也不会好的。
这种痛，不管多么人来说多少话…也不会好的。
这种痛，不管再怎么去分心…也不会好的。

爸爸，妈妈刚才告诉我……当我生出来时，就能看得出我很有个性。因为当我刚出生时，我并没有哭，什么声音也没发出。眼睛已经打开了，而且好大。一直看东看西。医生，护士叫我哭，但我不肯。他们就把我倒翻，我就哭了。而且喊得非常大声。不可相信，一个那么小的婴儿，既然能发出那么大的声音。只到医生把我翻回，我马上停止哭声了。

Daddy, everything seems so diabolical. I have to stop adopting this idiotic 'victim' mentality, don't I? You have to be so upset that I am so weak. I'm sorry. I miss you a lot, Daddy. Daddy, take me home. I'm scared. Daddy, hold me close. Daddy, is it okay to cry now? I cannot take it anymore, I am only human.

Yesterday,
is history.

Tomorrow,
is a mystery.

Today, is a present.

但我无法珍惜……

感到郁闷。最近一直感到郁闷…… I think I'm going through early menopausing.

Don't see anything impossible about that. Everyone is changing the timings to everything!

在我姥姥的时代，我现在这个年龄应该是已经结婚，生孩子了！
But look at me now. I'm nowhere close to getting married; leave alone giving birth.

In the past, girls do not have sex until they are married. If they did otherwise, it was a great disgrace to themselves and their family.
但现在呢？无所谓啊！没有得到艾滋病已经很好了……

When technology wasn't so advanced, people with perfectly good eyesights were common.
可现在没有那么好了。大部分的人不是穿眼镜，就是穿隐形眼镜。没有那么多人像我…远看不清，但还是不要穿眼镜或隐形眼镜。

Even if you were to resort to wearing a visual aid, people started at an older age. Right now? Children as young as 6 are wearing them!

以前女生得到月经的年龄，差不多十三岁以上。现在呢？七岁也行！
可怜啊……

So, up till now.....我还是感到很郁闷！！！！！！！！

Yes, yes. I must be having early menopause. Oh wells, may as well get it over & done with.

So many things happened lately...........爸爸，你在哪里啊？我好需要你的安慰呢……

I saw him enter the ambers of the end,
I heard people weep in despair.
看到他的尸体要被烧，
就想起当时的你。
Maybe I'm immuned to it,
maybe I'm not so attached anymore.
我没哭，我没流一滴的眼泪。
爸爸，是我无情吗？
他活着时，非常疼爱我的。
但我看到奶妈在我面前装坚强，
心里很难受。
I don't know how to comfort her,
I don't know how to be there for her.
我要亲吻她，她不肯。
我想抱她，她也不要。
一直说我是公主，
不能那样对待她。
爸爸，她为什么那么看小自己？
难道她不知道我是她养大的吗？
I want to cry,
but I don't want to.
她对我多重要，她根本不知道。
她为什么一直推开我？
为什么对我那么重要的人，
总是离我那么远。
What's the point of being scintillating,
when everything is so diabolical?
What's the point of being filled with acumen,
when my very soul is hollow?

爸爸……好痛。

晚餐吃了巧克力蛋糕！心情也好一点了！
明天我自己去找键盘乐器！
Sigh, I'm supposed to feel happier after all these.
But I don't feel it.
现在又不能睡…刚才办好丧事，逛街一会儿，回来睡大头觉。
I'm a nocturnal.
But I'm still a human.
Yes, I know, I'm blabbering utter rubbish.
不能睡觉就是这样子…

我想牵着你的手，到公园去。我们一起去欣赏秋天的美丽。我以前爱上了错人，以为那种东西是叫幸福。但现在我终于明白了。我想到公园的长椅，跟着你坐着。我想躺来你怀里，想时间停止。我想跟你分享我所有的快乐痛苦，我希望你会一样。我想跟你吵架，跟你恩爱，跟你野蛮，跟你亲密，跟你无聊，跟你郁闷，跟你幸福，跟你痛苦，跟你忍耐，跟你快乐，跟你疯狂，跟你无知，跟你厉害，跟你绝望，跟你优秀，跟你一切；用一句讲，我想说的是…我想跟你过一辈子。

‘我’ 是谁？作者，我。

新加坡只有夏天？没关系，到外国去好了！

’你‘是谁？……

不知道？那不会这个梦很难成真吗？的确是。

那为何让自己悲伤？因为虽然很难，但它不是不可能的。

世界那么恐怖，你还那么天真？你能说它恐怖，意思是你知道什么是美好的。就是，这个世界也让你看到美好的。

世界还是有美好的。
Somewhere down that bleak path that most of us are taking, is the key to Heaven.
Beyond the scopes of hopelessness we see, are the lights of better days.

Fake & Genuine

Give me something real to believe, because I feel that my everything is like a dream.

我傻，我天真，我糊涂，我笨……
我是世界上最无知的，我很容易就信任。

看到你信息，就笑容满面。
收到你短信，就兴奋起来。
听到你声音，就害羞了很。

这是爱吗？还只是因为我不想孤单？

Yet, I'm pretty sure what I feel is genuine.
Then again, yours seem fake.

Everything seems so perfect, yet broken.
Willing to love & nothing left to be spoken.

So give me something true,
to keep me breathing on.

Give me something I could see and know that it would always be there for me.

Before I start living only for myself & Daddy again; being so utterly selfish.

Daddy, I want to sleep well tonight.
Tell me a bedtime story,
tell me how I must continue to fight.
你不是常告诉我，我是公主吗？
但如果我不想当公主了呢？
I wish to shun all the horrors of this world,
I wish to only be your little girl.
不行，这样太自私了，对吗？
这样，你会对我很失望吧？
Daddy, I want to sit on your lap again.
Daddy, I remember when you carried me in the rain.
Daddy, let's go fishing at the reservior.
Daddy, I want to hold your hand once more.
我怀念以前躺在你怀里，
那么有安全感，
就像没有任何个东西能伤害我那样。
Daddy, I'm going to wake up now.
I'm going back to reality.
Promise, that you will always be with me.
不管你在哪里，你永久会在我心里。
答应你！