Practical Joke

You're nothing but a Ha Ha He He Ha Ha Ha.

Got me bursting in a mixture of emotions. The feeling is disgusting.

Love you, hate you.
Want you, discard you.
Hold you, leave you.

Whatever I want, is not whatever I want.

Go on deluding yourself that I may want you; because I might actually still do.

I'm drowned in temporary distractions and scintillating illusions.
I'm surrounded by realistically fake acumen on what I should want.
I've fallen in the abyss of the most diabolical understanding of what you might want.
I've adjusted countless tweaks in feeble attempt of your consent.

You put me through this; I've been through it before.

One day I'll awake and forget all.
Only inklings would occasionally visit my sea of thoughts.

You shoved me into this; I've survived this before.

One night I'll fall asleep and dream a fantasy.
A world whereby there are people I could trust & not fret about miscommunications and deceptions.

It's an ugly world, yet it has given me unlimited beautiful things.
It's a dirty world, yet it inspires me to clean up.

You are just you.
So I decided that, you are dropped.

Just as I mentioned, you are nothing by a practical joke of my past.

One day I'll remember & go Ha Ha He He Ha Ha Ha.