Stories told through my world.

Yesterday,
is history.

Tomorrow,
is a mystery.

Today, is a present.

但我无法珍惜……

感到郁闷。最近一直感到郁闷…… I think I'm going through early menopausing.

Don't see anything impossible about that. Everyone is changing the timings to everything!

在我姥姥的时代，我现在这个年龄应该是已经结婚，生孩子了！
But look at me now. I'm nowhere close to getting married; leave alone giving birth.

In the past, girls do not have sex until they are married. If they did otherwise, it was a great disgrace to themselves and their family.
但现在呢？无所谓啊！没有得到艾滋病已经很好了……

When technology wasn't so advanced, people with perfectly good eyesights were common.
可现在没有那么好了。大部分的人不是穿眼镜，就是穿隐形眼镜。没有那么多人像我…远看不清，但还是不要穿眼镜或隐形眼镜。

Even if you were to resort to wearing a visual aid, people started at an older age. Right now? Children as young as 6 are wearing them!

以前女生得到月经的年龄，差不多十三岁以上。现在呢？七岁也行！
可怜啊……

So, up till now.....我还是感到很郁闷！！！！！！！！

Yes, yes. I must be having early menopause. Oh wells, may as well get it over & done with.

So many things happened lately...........爸爸，你在哪里啊？我好需要你的安慰呢……

I saw him enter the ambers of the end,
I heard people weep in despair.
看到他的尸体要被烧，
就想起当时的你。
Maybe I'm immuned to it,
maybe I'm not so attached anymore.
我没哭，我没流一滴的眼泪。
爸爸，是我无情吗？
他活着时，非常疼爱我的。
但我看到奶妈在我面前装坚强，
心里很难受。
I don't know how to comfort her,
I don't know how to be there for her.
我要亲吻她，她不肯。
我想抱她，她也不要。
一直说我是公主，
不能那样对待她。
爸爸，她为什么那么看小自己？
难道她不知道我是她养大的吗？
I want to cry,
but I don't want to.
她对我多重要，她根本不知道。
她为什么一直推开我？
为什么对我那么重要的人，
总是离我那么远。
What's the point of being scintillating,
when everything is so diabolical?
What's the point of being filled with acumen,
when my very soul is hollow?

爸爸……好痛。

晚餐吃了巧克力蛋糕！心情也好一点了！
明天我自己去找键盘乐器！
Sigh, I'm supposed to feel happier after all these.
But I don't feel it.
现在又不能睡…刚才办好丧事，逛街一会儿，回来睡大头觉。
I'm a nocturnal.
But I'm still a human.
Yes, I know, I'm blabbering utter rubbish.
不能睡觉就是这样子…

我想牵着你的手，到公园去。我们一起去欣赏秋天的美丽。我以前爱上了错人，以为那种东西是叫幸福。但现在我终于明白了。我想到公园的长椅，跟着你坐着。我想躺来你怀里，想时间停止。我想跟你分享我所有的快乐痛苦，我希望你会一样。我想跟你吵架，跟你恩爱，跟你野蛮，跟你亲密，跟你无聊，跟你郁闷，跟你幸福，跟你痛苦，跟你忍耐，跟你快乐，跟你疯狂，跟你无知，跟你厉害，跟你绝望，跟你优秀，跟你一切；用一句讲，我想说的是…我想跟你过一辈子。

‘我’ 是谁？作者，我。

新加坡只有夏天？没关系，到外国去好了！

’你‘是谁？……

不知道？那不会这个梦很难成真吗？的确是。

那为何让自己悲伤？因为虽然很难，但它不是不可能的。

世界那么恐怖，你还那么天真？你能说它恐怖，意思是你知道什么是美好的。就是，这个世界也让你看到美好的。

世界还是有美好的。
Somewhere down that bleak path that most of us are taking, is the key to Heaven.
Beyond the scopes of hopelessness we see, are the lights of better days.